Influencer Merve Taşkın: 'He was kicking my genitals'

OnlyFans influencer Merve Taşkın shared the violence she suffered from her boyfriend on her social media account. Stating that she ended the relationship about 3 months ago, Taşkın also explained why she is speaking out now.

Taşkın used the following expressions:

"Exactly one year ago today, I started a relationship where I was subjected to violence for about 7-8 months of a 10-month relationship, and this violence increased with each passing day. I am sad, and I am not sharing these to make you feel pity or to get a reaction."

"My answer to the question of why you are sharing this now instead of 3 months ago is that I didn't have a strong state of mind back then... I suppressed what I went through and acted as if it never happened. But unfortunately, suppressed emotions come out sooner or later. I suppressed it as much as I could until a time when I felt stronger. Until today."

"At first, the violence seemed milder and perhaps acceptable, but then it started to reach dangerous levels. In a way, I was accepting that this was being done to me. I forgave him every time because I thought I was the problematic one inside and that these were my fault, and perhaps I deserved it. 'He' was also telling me that I deserved these, and even more. Mine was a need for love and an addiction.

I was content with even the smallest crumb of love. But his could not be love, because you cannot inflict violence on someone you love. I lost my self-respect too much. If I was accepting that these were being done to me, how much could I have loved myself? When I didn't love myself, how could someone else love me?"

'PERHAPS HE WAS THREATENING OUT OF ANGER'

"The violence had reached such a dangerous level that I am grateful because I didn't die or become disabled. He was punching my head, my ears, my nose, and kicking my stomach and my genitals. Sometimes he would threaten to kill or maim me. Perhaps he was threatening out of anger, but even if it wasn't intentional, I could have died accidentally while he was hitting me because he was hitting my dangerous areas too much.

Other than permanent damage to my fingers, nothing else remained. The ligaments in my fingers were almost torn; if they had torn, I might have needed surgery, but thank God they didn't, and the doctor said I would recover within 1 year."

"You are not alone; yes, it might be difficult, but once you find the strength to leave inside you one day, you will heal, even if slowly. Nothing can be worse than being subjected to violence every day. I just wanted the pain of this trauma I experienced to be visible.

Because if it becomes visible, I won't be able to run away, I will have to face it. I would like to thank all my friends who tried to save me during this process but couldn't because I didn't want them to, but who always waited for me to return to my old life and supported me when I did. Everything was my choice, and I lived the consequences of my choices."